Two Faced

Hiii.... Today it's just gonna be a short post.... I'm feeling rather Alone. I don't quite know why I'm feeling Alone. It's probably cuz I AM Alone. Being an only child, I happen to be Alone very often.... But I don't always feel Alone. This Alone-ness is different. (btw peeps I know a word like 'lonely' exists.... But that makes me sound like some weird desperate sexual predator... Ugh). So I sit here feeling Alone. i really just need someone to talk to... And YES I know I 'm beginning to sound like Winnie the Pooh but SERIOUSLY... All my best friends are abroad or doing something worthwhile with their lives.... I'm sprawled on the floor, listening to Hindi songs... I don't quite know why.... But I am. And I'm feeling USELESS. Like I'm good at things, but not GREAT at anything :( I hate feeling insecure. It's annoying and makes me more of an introvert than I already am. i might as well disappear. I was singing Just Give Me a Reason by P!nk when I decided that I sounded nice enough and I should try recording myself.... And then I looked like CRAP in the video.... Why is it that I look passable in the mirror and HIDEOUS in pictures???

Don't you think so?? We should try a day without mirrors.... Or the backs of shiny spoons... Or polished surfaces.... Or stagnant water.... Okay fine that's pretty impossible sounding.... So maybe we should just care less what we look like because we're all just people and we all suck.... Oh crud I'm not going the right way.... We shouldn't care about our reflection much because it's what's inside that counts... Oh GOD no. Scratch that. We should just forget about our reflections and how much they suck because there will eventually be that Prince Charming (ahem... Gross) who'll come and sweep us off our feet.

What utter rubbish. I am beginning to sound rather batty.
I think I should go.

Alvida,
Squish.