ANIME ANIME ANIME

Hi!

Quick update: Today I had this state level test thingy... And I'm so glad it's over!

I came home and watched Howl's Moving Castle for the millionth time, then watched some Deathnote episodes, then browsed through some yaoi on Tumblr (don't judge) 

Then I reminisced to my dad on the phone about the time when I used to watch Naruto and Pokemon. 

Basically, I had a very anime evening

So here's a spam of shots from Howl's and Deathnote because they are my absolute favourites.

Aww <3<3

Guys with earrings amirite

The sassiest nan ever tbh

and THIS GUY ^-^

Now the deathnote spam

This'll be shorter cuz I have to go sleep

I have college at 7:30 tomorrow for which I have to get up at 6:20 for :(((

I like how when there is all this delicious drama happening, Ryuk is 

is just chilling, laughing and eating apples (you can't get much cooler)

I SHIP IT YO

Awwww 

(he's gonna get diabetic real fast)

Okay crap it's getting very late, I'm tired af

Byeeeee

Alvida,

Squish 

of Positives & Pictures

HI
I am currently in high spirits.

Life is filled with tests and I have to study for 5 hours a day.
I also don't get weekends.
There is a massive ton of pressure pouring in from everywhere.
It feels my future depends on every breath I take.
It's pretty crazy, to say the least.

However, I'm not here to complain.
Because I chose this.
Sure, I didn't know exactly HOW hectic it was going to turn out to be, so every now and then I can have melt downs (unavoidable tbh)
But I'm trying to look at the positives here.

Positives:

1. I am up to date with all my studying

2. I have great friends in college.

3. I have a very close friend in college.

4. I bought cool earrings on the train.

5. I am doing really well in class.

6. I got new fandom merch.

aaaaaaand.........



I ORDERED THE AMAZING BOOK IS NOT ON FIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wheeeeeeee

If you don't know what the eff that is (shame on you) , it is the summary of Dan and Phil and everything they stand for and have done and stuff, carefully crafted (don't cry) into a book.
AND I ORDERED IT.
ohhh yes.

It cost a HELL of a lot, but I had some saved up cash and it's freaking DAN AND PHIL.
Nnnnnngggg

I'm so excited.
I have no idea when it'll turn up, what with it having to turn up from he UK to India and all....
But eventually some day, it shall arrive.
Yea

Anyway, I better go for dinner now or my mum will get pissed.
Ta

Alvida,
Squish


PS: Just to show my love and appreciation for those two dorks, here's a little spam of their pretty faces:
    I love them so much wtf   Phil jesus christ you're allergic  AGH why do you do this

Anyway, that's it for now
Sorry the post wasn't too amazing
I'm just in a bit of a hurry
And in a really good mood so I'm too jumpy to sit down and think properly
No srs bsns right now
YEa

Laughing In Retrospect

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Okay what the actual HELL was my last post??!!!

I sounded like some screwed up, failed writer having a crisis and angsting about it online to people who don't give two shits.

Or worse, some moronic, weepy complainer who has nothing better to do than compose melancholy speeches on her silly little first-world problems.

I am truly sorry for putting you through that horrible piece of writing. But I won't delete it as I want it to remain as an example of what one should definitely NOT write in a blog post.

Side Note: I am still sad about college (I don't like it at all). I am still stressed about studies (there's a crap load of it). I am still insecure about stuff (who isn't) and I still am a 16-year-old girl with problems that are important to her (as they should be)
My problems are important, yes, but I need to stop going on and on and on about them because then, I'm squashing the time in which I could do something to improve. I'm simply spending too much time loathing how things are to actuaLLY GET THE EFF UP AND STOP BEING A WUSS.

So on that motivating note, I shall depart.
Again, my apologies for my previous shitstorm of a post. Hopefully, that won't happen again :P

Suggestions:

Book: Since I haven't read a new book in a while (I've been busy af), I'm gonna say, re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-read Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince and admire the sass master that Ginny is. I honestly never reeaally loved Ginny that much but I always liked her badass, I-can-do-it-just-as-well-as-you spirit.

Songs: Fight Song (Rachel Platten)
            Cruel To Be Kind- Letters to Cleo
            Firefly- Ed Sheeran
            From Eden- Hozier

Movie: Ramdhanu (It's a Bengali film. It's really lovely and funny and has a nice message. Watch it with subtitles)

YouTube: Lean On and Jind Mahi Mashup- VidyaVox (it's an epic blend of sounds)
                 Blank Space and Jealous Acoustic Mashup- Megan Davies (I now have girl crushes on them)
                 Gay Guy Calls Westboro Baptist Church- Riyadh K (Really funny)
                 The Cheese Challenge- AmazingPhil
                 Why are Girls So Confusing And Complicated?- OnisionSpeaks

Other- Fanfiction. That's all I can say. Read tons and tons of fanfiction. Tumblr, fanfiction.net, deviantart, Wattpad, archiveofourown, you name it. Explore. Find your mild kinks. Fluff. Smut. Drabble. A/U. Delve into the deep dark sex-crazed part of your mind and indulge it with fantastic visuals of your favourite characters etc doing unspeakable things to each other.

Okay. Wow. I may have just let a bit too much emotion spill out into that last bit :P
Sorry.
Just, when everything from college and all is so heavy and tiring, reading fanfiction is a great luxury :D

Alvida,
Squish

Turmoil

Okay.

So there is something I haven't really addressed on this blog much and that is- I'm going through the I'm-16-and-depressed thing. Yeah.

So.

I'm 16 years old.

And I'm depressed a lot of the time.

See, happiness is a very fleeting state of mind. It's so freaking transient that you start regretting feeling it in the first place, because, what's the point, it's gonna end anyway.

Before I start telling you more about how I feel and all that, I'd just like to say that this is most definitely not me saying silly things like "I hate my life" because honestly. I don't.

I have incredible parents, a great house, a few loyal and loving friends, a fabulous best friend, some awesome relatives and everything I could possibly want. This is more of a psychological thing okay?

I'm not denouncing all I have achieved. I am truly grateful for how lucky I am to be born to such open-minded people and in a fully functional body. 

Now that that disclaimer is done with, I'll move on to the actual shiz.

I have these mood swings. I start off the day with a smile and a conquer-all attitude but as some time passes, my shoulders droop and my entire euphoria just... Dissolves. This happens all the time. Pleased. Disappointed. Proud. Regretful. Ecstatic. Fed up. Amused. Annoyed. 

It's just this odious cycle of opposing emotions that drive me completely insane.

And these wonderful feelings are accompanied by their closest companion- Doubt.

Doubt is honestly the most revolting thing in the world. I HATE feeling doubtful.

I doubt myself, my ambitions, capabilities, choices, other people etc etc and it simply compounds the depression. 

For instance, I constantly doubt whether I made the right choice by signing up for medical coaching classes. I doubt whether I truly want to be a doctor. I doubt whether anybody actually likes me at my college. I doubt whether I'll be able to keep up my, up till now, good grades in class and it goes on and on and on.

I am drowning in uncertainty.

At one instant, I'm laughing with my friends feeling carefree, or grinning while I read a book, and the next instant, this unfriendly, cold negativity has just settled in on a nice little spot in my head. It makes me see things less brightly, like it's seeping out the colour around me and replacing it with my anxiety and unresolved fears. 

I may sound all dramatic and bookish right now, but that's the best way I can describe it. 

And yes, I KNOW that this too will pass but I'm gonna have to deal with it in the present and I don't know how. I'm ceaselessly trying to find ways to keep me happy but I'm running out. I read good books but my depression steps in when I'm halfway through with a "You should be studying". I go out with my friends but depression slides in with a clever "Your friends will never be as stressed as you". I study but depression retaliates with an almighty "You're never going to be good enough". 

And I'm sick of it.

I thought that this month of holiday I got might change things. It might be that breathing-break I was craving. It might pull me back to reality and make me study without feeling a load of despondency on my back. It didn't. Nothing changed and I'm feeling worthless again.

And I KNOW I'm not worthless.

I know I'm not stupid. I know I'll never end up making a ridiculous and rash decision in a flurry of rage. I know I'll never develop a seriously bad habit like smoking. 

But when Doubt crashes into you like a tidal wave, you can only watch as it scatters the broken remains of your self-confidence across the sand. 

Wow. I'm so depressed, I'm even writing like some sad, sad scholar. 

I really didn't want this post to be so wretched and gloomy but what do.

I mean, I do need an outlet for my crazy mixed-up brain. 

I originally wanted this post to be about Dan and Phil and how much I love them. I wanted to write sweet, honest truths about how just watching their videos for the last four years has changed me for the better in so many ways. I wanted to gush about how brilliant and creative they are, and discuss the Phandom and its flaws, in detail. 

But then I got into this dismal mood. 

Anyway. this is how I feel currently. I usually also give some sage advice at the end of my posts but this time, I have none, as I myself am flailing helplessly, trying to make the smiles last for longer.

Except maybe, watch Dan and Phil. Or take solace in the Internet.

Suggestions: 

Book: The Sky is Everywhere (Jandy Nelson)

           Aristotle and Dante Discover The Secrets of the Universe (Benjamin Alire Sáenz)

           Fangirl (Rainbow Rowell) 

Song: Mercy (Muse)

          Open Your Eyes (Snow Patrol)

          Oblivion (Bastille)

          Breathe Me (Sia)

          Work Song (Hozier)

          Numb (Sam Brookes)

          Centuries (Fallout Boy)

Movie: PK (It's a Hindi film. Even if you don't know Hindi, trust me it's excellent. Watch it with subtitles)

Youtube: Music Video Sins (they're really funny) 

                danisnotonfirevyou1 (because who doesn't need phan updates in their life)

Okay, that's it (:

I'd better go study now as I'm going for a piano concert later.

I'm actually feeling a bit better after writing this.

Thank you Internet.

Alvida,

Squish.

How To Make Friends in College (Geek Edition)

Hiyoooohh!!

Long story short:
1. Boards got over.
2. I went to the Andaman and Nicobar Islands with the fam for a vacation.
3. Chilled with friends.
4. Started college today.

Did you read the 4th point and go, wait WHAT??
Well, it's true!
I started Junior College today.

My choice subjects are Physics, Chemistry, Zoology, Botany, Information Technology and Math/Psychology (I haven't made a choice yet, but it's probs gonna be maths)
My compulsory subjects are English, Environmental Studies and Physical Education. (lol srsly idek wtf)

We had two, three-hour lectures today and I really enjoyed the Zoology lecture. Physics was okay, I guess, but our professor seemed a bit out of it and I became really drowsy towards the end :D
However, I did comprehend most of what he was saying :p

I guess the highlight of today however is the Mingling.
So as you know, I'm an extremely awkward and shy person. Being dropped into a crowd of COMPLETELY UNKNOWN PEOPLE, is my Nightmare.
So I was really really worried about being that weird freaky kid who doesn't talk to anyone.

However....
I managed to muster the courage to introduce myself to and talk to the girl I was sharing a bench with, and another girl behind me. They both seemed very nice :)
Now I had worn my Deathly Hallows pendant to college in the hopes that someone would see it and identify themselves to me as a fellow fangirl.
And to my intense satisfaction (and relief), a slightly crazy (but sweet) girl came up to me during our break between lectures and introduced herself as a Potterhead. I also spoke to another girl next to her and we instantly hit it off. So I moved to sit next to them for our second lecture and I felt really happy and warm and accepted.

The thing is. If it hadn't been for the necklace, I might not have ended up speaking to these two and would have continued to remain slightly cut off from the others.

The point isn't the material necklace, but what it represents: COMMON INTERESTS.

So my advice for today (applicable in every situation I feel) is to talk and develop conversations and friendly relations based on Common Interests.

Because fangirling gets you far in life.

OH YES IT DOES.

So I have college tomorrow, and the day after that and then after that. But I feel that over time, the nerves that accompany me through the doors into our classroom will slowly fade and I'll get closer to the other people in my batch.
Seriously though, we have a long, hard journey ahead into the Medical Stream and we need to stick together for that. I saw how our seniors (they're all slightly mental) were a tight-knit group and I hope the same thing happens to us:)

SUGGESTIONS!!!!!!! (I haven't done this in ages sorry :p )

YouTube: Hannah Hart (biggest crush on her since forever. Also, dat hairstyle tho)
Songs: If you want to cry, re-listen to Light Behind Your Eyes and The World Is Ugly by MCR
Books: The Cuckoo's Calling by JK Rowling writing under the pseudonym Robert Galbraith
Movies: I literally haven't watched one in ages oh god
Other: gah just go on Tumblr I'm too tired to think ;)

Alvida,
Squish

PS: Amazingphil's new Easter Baking (well, melting and then chilling) video was soooo adorable and had all the right Phan Pheels :D I'm not some manic shipper or anything, but I definitely think they'd be ridiculously cute together :) Also Dan's bunny suit is such a vast bag of Nope that you should def not miss out on :D :p
So go check that out too!!! <3

Women 24x7

It's just another day today.
Well, it's International Women's Day.
Which is a day like any other.

I know I'm definitely not the first person saying that this specific day should not be that ONE day when people try to comprehend the worth and importance of women but instead they should respect us every single day.

Everyday should be an International "We're All Equal" Day, where we rejoice our existence and work for a better today and tomorrow.
Everyday should be an International "Much Unity, Very Love" Day where we support each other, no matter what caste, creed, gender, sexual orientation, colour, race, economic background, social status etc etc etc they identify with.

Because IDENTITY in itself, is a very important word. It is something that should have broad horizons and a timeless understanding. One should be able to be who they want, without fear or bias. If you're a woman, you don't have to be delicate, gentle, quiet, empathetic or motherly. If you're a man, you don't have to be strong, fearless or less sensitive.
If you are, good for you!
If you aren't, good for you!
There is no criteria you need to fulfill, to exist as a free, independent human being with an identity completely unique to you.

Of course, this doesn't mean one can commit crimes, hurt others, destruct peace and then sing "Baby I Was Born This Way".
No.
You were not born that way.
Your circumstances and choices and other influences made you that way.
And then if you do something wrong, it's not freaking God's will or Society's will, it's your will.
And sometimes, you're wrong.
So I guess you should try your best to move along the path that is right. (And common sense dictates which one that is, I believe)

I originally wanted to talk about India's Daughter, where I'd rant about the heinous statements made by the defense lawyers of the rapists, disgusting sexist comments of various people of authority, public outcry, the BBC Documentary etc.
But somehow, the idea of contaminating the post with the hatred and disgust I feel towards these ministers, lawyers, police inspectors etc etc seemed like something I just didn't want to do.
I just want this post to be about equality, compassion and protection of all humans from ignorance and injustice and not another reminder of the wrongs that have been committed.

So I have to go now, as I have my final math paper tomorrow.
But I'd like to conclude this post by saying that:

I hope that this Women's Day helps, even if it's just a little bit, towards promoting love and respect towards women because seriously, it's 2015, and anyone who feels that women are not worthy of all that, is probably MASSIVELY mislead or IMMENSELY stupid.
Or both.
Yeah.

Quote Time!!!

Alvida,

Squish.

Bored of Boards

Hello World!!
I really wanted to say that I went to hell and back, but I'm still in hell so I guess that phrase isn't particularly applicable here:)
The hell I am referencing here is in fact my ICSE BOARD EXAMS.
These are the board exams that a student gives after completing tenth standard. There are various different boards (systems), but I study under the ICSE. Which is a ton of trash.

Either way, those *ahem* lovely things are going on right now and I have 6 exams left (well 5.5 really since one of them is Art). I had HistoryCiv today and I think it went pretty well. Yesterday, after a full day of studying, I was completely worn out and sad. I was also feeling really awful about missing the Ed Sheeran concert that was at Mahalaxmi Racecourse only this Sunday. I met up with some friends yesterday and all they did was talk about it and I just had to listen to them blabber on an on about how great is was and how sad it is that it actually had to end at some point. I just stood there like "srsly dude idek wtf is my life smh" and came home and sat, staring at a wall for about 15 minutes just LOATHING my life.
ED SHEERAN.
jesus.
Better than jesus.

Apparently he wore a kurta and had an Indian Flag with him. Apparently he sang all the most beautiful songs and asked the crowd to do harmonies. Apparently he spent time with Bollywood celebrities after that. Apparently he loved Mumbai so much that he promised he'd come back.

Okay I'm just disappearing in regret now.
Anyway, if he does indeed come back then I'll DEF GO  FOR IT.
So yeah.

Also, fun fact! I started vlogging recently.
It's so much fun!!!
I do it on my phone camera so the quality is kind of crap, but still, it makes me really happy :)
I'm never gonna upload or in fact, show them to anyone ever, probs, but they're present as a reminder of who I was.... You know, memories and stuff :D

Okay short post today cuz I gotta go study geography and stuff but I promise I will update soon!!

THIS AWESOMENESS.

Is it just me or does the gradual disintegration effect remind you just a LEEETLE bit of that of Voldemort at the end of Deathly Hallows pt 2??? 

Sorry :p
Too many fandoms :)

Alvida,

Squish

Awww Kward

Hello there world:)

Recently, I've been faced with many everyday circumstances, but came off worst in them.
AKA, my awkwardness and pathetic people skills intervened and the situation spiraled down the drain.
So I thought, as a method of reflection, I would list these various moments out in no specific chronological sequence, just so that.... I could revel in my own social awkwardness.

My List of Recent Awkward Events

1. I got onto a bus that drops me off about half a kilometer from my home. However, when I realized this, I  still had the chance to get off and take another bus that would basically just drop at my doorstep. But because I had ALREADY bought the bleeding ticket, and was too awkward to actually get off my butt, I ended up waiting until this far-off bus stop and walking home in the heat. I actually quite like walking but that's NOT THE POINT. I failed miserably in a situation where about 96.74% people should be excelling. Ick.

2. Some random guy's earring fell off and I saw it happen. I was gonna tell him but he wasn't facing and I was too awkward to actually tap him on the shoulder and be like "Hey your earring departed from it's home and followed a parabolic path to the ground where it's now situated". However, while I was debating on what I should do, he took a step back, nearly crushing the stupid thing, and I made this involuntary shouting noise like "eeaahh". He turned around and just looked at me like I had completely lost it, and instead of saying "Your earring fell off" I said "Don't step back!" And he just kept looking at me in that same, slightly apprehensive fashion, when I spat out, "Your earring is on the ground behind you!" And then I ran away. Well, after being thanked by Random Guy. WHY. WHY CAN I NOT BE NORMAL.

3. I was standing in line at a bus stop and this random middle-aged female just came up from behind me and stood in front of me like it's the most normal thing in the world. Now, it's not truly such a big deal, but the fact that she showed not a HINT of remorse at having done so, just tipped the balance a little bit. I felt like I should at least make my stance more hostile so she can 'get the vibe'. So it was all going fine as I stared vengefully at her back until she suddenly turned around. Before I could wipe that stupid pseudo-angry look off my face, she saw me and I could actually see her eyes widen and she took a step back. When the bus finally arrived, she stepped out from ahead of me and joined the end of the line. That was technically, the point of the entire endeavor- to teach the lady some rules- but I can't help thinking that my vengeful face might be haunting her for a few days now.

4. I was at this restaurant with my parents and some family friends and the waiter poured water in our glasses from this transparent jar that had some random plant in it. I had two major concerns at that point. a) That plant had grown there because the restaurant was a messy dump ( not at all really) and b) If it was meant to be there then what was it? So when the guy came back, instead of asking him directly which plant it was, I kind of mumbled "What was the plant?" He looked so confused that I nearly cried. Then I asked him he actual question. I think he thought that I had some sort of a brain defect.

That's all I can think of now :)
I don't know if that's a good thing though :O :p

                                                      Dignity Successfully Destroyed.

Thank you Tumblr, for all the epic gifs :)
I feel much better now that I've written this post, and have seen some Dan and Phil awesomeness :)
Gotta go solve physics practice papers :'(
Ta.

Alvida,
Squish

PS: I don't know if I mentioned this earlier but I watched the IMITATION GAME. It was PHENOMENAL. I loved it. I'll talk about it next time!!! <3

Around the Sun in 365 Days

Phan Phan Phan Phan Phan

Hi?

I'm so sorry?

I don't even know what is appropriate in this circumstance.

I haven't blogged since 19th April, 2014.

It's unacceptable.

I'm really sorry!!!

I have no excuse. Well I kind of do, tenth standard has been a heck of year what with the truckload of tests, practicals, project submissions and marathon studying. It's been stressful but it's finally over.
In fact, my prelims (preliminary examinations) just came to their glorious end today! I have my final exams (ICSE Board Exams) starting in a little more than a month but I'm truthfully, not too stressed about them because
a) They're actually quite simple
b) I already have admission in college via scholarship
c) I'm so tired of this endless cycle of studying stupid shit

So I am now relaxing. Since I haven't blogged for almost a year, I think it wold be fitting for me to re-introduce myself and my life. I'll tell you all the things that have happened recently (since I can't remember all the way back to last April) and you can gather some sort of a vague idea of who I was, am and am in the process of developing into!
I'll list (I love listing) :)

1. Tenth standard was a hard year but I think I made some really great friends. I mean, they were already friends with me, but I think they're closer and I really enjoy hanging out with them. I was quite an introvert and still am, and nearly had a panic-attack the last time I had to go to the canteen to buy "roti" (Indian flat bread). However, I think I have made a small amount of progress with my fear of people and judgement. I am no longer as afraid of singing in front of large groups as I sang alone on a big stage at this inter-school competition. My fear of public-speaking might just have reduced a fraction. When it comes to grades, I kept them up and I'm really satisfied with how things are.

2. I have decided to pursue a career in medicine and am starting coaching from this upcoming April. I'm really excited to finally have great teachers teaching me my favorite sciences and I think even if college will be a grueling ordeal, I might actually enjoy it. I hope I can pluck up the courage to make some new friends and the tough schedule doesn't shatter my spirit into pitiful little crystals :D

3. Speaking of plucking up the courage, my best friend asked me out. But I never had feelings for him so I declined in a way that I initially thought was, for all intents and purposes, tactful. However later onward when the two of us looked back at how I had handled the situation, I couldn't have been more hopeless :( But now, after some awkwardness, we're back to being best friends, and he's dating one of my friends from school. I'm happy for them, truly:)

4. When it comes to dating, feelings and all mushy things, I have made no progress. But what would you expect from a girl in a single-sex school who harshly judges everyone based on fandom-choice, socio-political beliefs and general intelligence? Trust me, by this I don't mean to sound like some high-brow uncannily clever person. I just wish that there were more sensible, good-looking, single and compassionate boys about. Ummm also, I'm not "ek saw pratishat"  (100%) certain that I'm solely attracted to boys. There might have been a girl I liked from school but I'm not gonna go on about that because I'm not sure whether I just really liked her as a person or legit had a crush on her. I'm confused, you know?

5. We moved into a new apartment which is beautiful:) In my room, I had one of the walls painted a shade of golden (like Leslie's wall in Bridge To Terabethia) and it shines in the sunlight. (No obnoxious comparison to Edward freaking Cullen's Cutaneous Pyrotechnics please). I love the view, the extra space and the fact that my two closest childhood friends are in this building too. But at times I have these pangs of longing for my old home.

6. I read many many incredible books and talking about all the ones that had some sort of an impact on me will take way too long so maybe from now I'll try doing a few book reviews every now and then :) It'll be fun :)

7. The current state of events in the world, the liberal use of weaponry and the ever present hypocrisy and hatred really makes me feel helpless at times. I urge everyone to please go to https://www.change.org/  and sign as many petitions as possible! There are many other sites too where you can help in making a positive change just by pressing a button. PLEASE do this. It takes a pinch of compassion, humility and understanding to recognize the cries of help that we see all around us. sometimes, a simple subscription helps.

8. I have to go to a tenth-standard batch party today at this restaurant place. I don't know what we'll do there because parties are generally just a blur of dancing, meeting people and painfully loud music. The only stand-out is the great food. But if that sucks too, then, in my opinion, that party is a pile of horsecrap. So I hope I'm not voluntarily signing up for a terrible evening :/
You know what, I had this thought, about half an hour before midnight on 31st December when I was hanging out with a couple of my friends, that I should start being more positive and open to other and alternative ideas. I sometimes am so deeply submerged in worries of all the bad outcomes, that I forget to hope for the best. I need to change this awful habit.
Now. I will change it now. I will hope that this upcoming gathering is not going to be a complete failure and that I will actually end up having some fun because if I go there expecting the evening to crash and burn, there is a higher probability of it actually being that way than the alternative.

Voila! That's the moral for the day!

*sorry* Caffeine rush happening right now :p

Anyway, I better go and do something else now, as I've been sitting in front of the comp ever since I got home. I think I'll read some fanfictions :p Or this incredible story I'm reading on Wattpad.
Or I might call a friend and we could go for a walk while the golden rays of the sun activate all the Vitamin D and melanin in our skin.

*sorry* It's the caffeine talking!!

I solemnly swear that I will write more often from now on.
Mischief Managed.

Alvida,
Squish.

PS: That Phan-love in the beginning was to soften you up so that you hate me hust a little less for not writing for so long :) PSYCHHHHHH