"And now it seems to me, the beautiful uncut hair of graves"
-Paper Towns
Yes.
I made the punishable mistake of reading another John Green book.
And while I am thoroughly in love with it and Quentin, there is no going back on the fact that now I'm contemplating the reason of my existence and the worth of my problems.
For example, when Quentin breaks through the various metaphors used on basic human relationships and life, I can't help but think about being irreparably broken.
Or worse, living in a world where you believe that you are irreparably broken.
Or, even more thought-provoking than that, what if I imagine the people I know? What if I don't really know them? What if the expectations, the hopes, or just my imagination, has compiled together a fictional life for me, where I deal with these paper people, in a paper way?
What even is Realizing?
How do you know whether what you have "realized" even is the right thing to realize?
Is there even a right thing to realize? How do we differentiate between what we already know and what our mind develops? If reality was linked to realization, would we all be living differently? Or is reality made of flimsy paper thin fantasies that have encompassed our live in their desirable arms?
But what I really truly LOVED about the plot is the emphasis on human behavior.How Q, Ben, Radar, Lacey, Ruthie, Q's parents, Jase, Chuck and finally, Margo, are all just people.
And in the end, I think, there is no paper. All you can do is just look at it from the angle of whichever metaphor you pick, and dream out a life. Live just like you would think you're un-papered self would live. Then, look at how you are living. Compare the two. In the end I think these two will meet, even if for a moment. But they will meet. And when they do, you would probably realize that What is you reality, and what is your dream, and what the difference between the two is, can only be determined by you.
So I'm gonna take this book with me. I'm gonna go on living exactly how I'm living at present, because this story hasn't told me my life is sad or boring or in need of an adventure. It has simply told me that there are multiple facets and multiple metaphors, and if you're ready to accept that, you can flit in between them like a bird in paradise without getting hurt. So now whenever I feel that something I'm doing is an entirely "paper-act" I'll look again, just like how Quentin read Song of Myself so many times, and whether or not my perspective of that particularly odious task changes or not, I will have gained several views.
Then I can choose!!!!
But AFTER all this extreme philosophy has been worn down....
I'm gonna play metaphysical I-Spy with people.
Done.
Also I just have to commend John Green for making the book fan-freaking-funny-tastic. I have NEVER though that peeing into a beer bottle in a minivan could be made to sound this hilarious.
I mean i literally had tears streaming down my face as I gasped for breath or for the moment when he would reveal the true Margo, I don't even know which one I was crying for, but whatever it was, it was FUNNY.
My gyad.
So I'm sorry I haven't written in more than a freaking month, but I've been busy okay???
Anyway, the summer vacations start in a couple of days, so I guess my ranting will be more frequent then :)
Speaking of emoticons, I got a new phone and it's pretty fantastic!!
But after the initial exhilaration of being on WhatsApp and playing Temple Run and Instagram and all that, I kind of had a moment of complete actualization where I identified the phone for what it truly was.
A gadget.
Just a damn gadget.
A fun gadget, but a gadget all the same.
So then after that moment of enlightenment, I now spend less time on it.
Also, I've had it with people telling me not to study so much because from studying so much I am benefiting. And it is my choice and I'm simply over being walked all over like an effing carpet because my decisions, motives and reasons are valid.
I AM A PROUD GEEK THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
Alvida,
Squish
PS: OHMYGOODLORD DIVERGENT THE MOVIE WAS SPECTACULAR I THINK I HAVE THE BIGGEST CRUSH ON SHAILENE WOODLEY AND THEO JAMES. AS WELL AS THE REST OF THE CAST.
Praise the flaming bisexual in me.... :D
More about this next time okay??? :)<3<3
