It can't be December. That's plain lunacy. The freaking year's practically OVER!!!! And what's really really frightening is that, right now I looked back and couldn't recall ONE SINGLE occasion where I did something that I will remember for the rest of my life. That probably explains why I can't think of any. Inwardly, I know, at least I think I know that I'm just being a bit hyper and not processing my thoughts properly and actually In HAVE done things that will make me go all, "Yeah! I'm so flippin' awesome!"
But, seriously, I'm not really here to talk about any presently-unable-to-recollect achievements... I'm here to talk about anger.
Anger is really damn horrible and affects me in many ways. I do have quite a short temper, and sometimes, my thoughts get so out of control, I can barely make myself stay still. Not that I have to necessarily stay still during these stressful stretches of time or anything.... It's just, I'm trying to master control over one's defining emotions. Like, for example, let's take jealousy. I don't, honestly, get jealous too often since I believe that in being jealous, you don't really end up achieving what you're jealous of the victim of your jealousy for. Now that sounds complicated, but run it over a few times and I swear it'll make sense:)
Anyway, so Jealousy. If someone is jealous all the time, it is bound to affect that person's behavior some time, right? Unless the person uses the art of self-control, where, when they feel jealous of someone, they quietly let it flow and fill them up, and meanwhile try to understand why they're feeling jealous. There's no point in trying to convince oneself that the emotions one is feeling is false, or a joke or some rubbish like that. It's completely fine to feel negative emotions. The more you shy away from them, the more they haunt you and make you feel far more sickly than when you go (actually you don't really have to go anywhere, though somewhere quiet and windy always helps in my case:p) and confront them. You should totally be fine with you feeling jealous, but then learn to not show it to others. This, I know, sounds a lot like I'm saying that saying that you should keep your feelings bottled up. This is why, I'll add that another way, probably faster and easier way, is to tell someone really close, whom you trust and love or whatever. I like that method too, but the problem is, I'm an only child, and sometimes saying certain things to your parents gets really... erm... awkward. So if my best-friend-for-the-rest-of-eternity is not free for me to spill, then I have only my crazed SELF to resort to. So I shall master self-control. I will keep the crappy feelings in, and analyze them, and do something sensible to solve my problem, not, like hack off the person I'm pissed off with's head.
That was a joke!!!!! I've never been tempted to hack off anyone's head. Though I remember that I was sorely tempted to poison Justin Bieber's drink with cyanide or something... Kidding!!!! (Again) Murderous wishes in any kid's mind means that the creep needs therapy, and fast.
Right, so self-control, self-preservation (in a way).... And, (yes I was reading Princess Diaries recently) SELF-ACTUALIZATION. I really don't understand what they mean by the term? Does it mean to understand your own feelings, as in the way you think? Or is it what you want in life and you realize how to get it in the right way? Or is it that someone tells you something true about you, and it may be good or bad, but it hits you all hard and axe-like, and you know that it's true?? OR is it simply that you learn how to be a good person and not hurt other people while trying to acquire a lovely life or something? AAAHHHH!!!!
This is sooo confusing.
"Self-actualization refers to fulfilling ones individual potential." I just got this from the net. Hmm... Does that really make you a better perfect because however brilliant you may be in a certain field/s, it doesn't directly make you a BETTER person, right? I mean, just look at Pablo Picasso!!!! He was a fantastic artist, but totally sucked at being a human being. I mean, he drove a bunch of his girlfriends to insanity!!! So you see what I mean? He DID fulfill his individual potential by making sure the entire planet knew he was a master at art... But he wasn't a good person. No way Jose.
So I think, self-actualization is getting what you dearly want in life, in a good, clever, selfless way....
Yeesh. That's a bit too much. But I guess helping others comes in self-actualization, as it makes you caring and compassionate etc etc. But every individual should be allowed to let a little sliver of selfishness in once in a while.... You know, without hurting anyone, but without thinking about the greater good or whatever every second you breath. Is that too much to ask for??
I have absolutely no clue...
Oh I know it's really not related to the serious, life-choice context, but I absolutely LOVE The Wanted!!!!!
Their music is simply E-P-I-C!! Love them sooo much...
Anyway, now I've got to go....
Alvida till the next time,
Squish
But, seriously, I'm not really here to talk about any presently-unable-to-recollect achievements... I'm here to talk about anger.
Anger is really damn horrible and affects me in many ways. I do have quite a short temper, and sometimes, my thoughts get so out of control, I can barely make myself stay still. Not that I have to necessarily stay still during these stressful stretches of time or anything.... It's just, I'm trying to master control over one's defining emotions. Like, for example, let's take jealousy. I don't, honestly, get jealous too often since I believe that in being jealous, you don't really end up achieving what you're jealous of the victim of your jealousy for. Now that sounds complicated, but run it over a few times and I swear it'll make sense:)
Anyway, so Jealousy. If someone is jealous all the time, it is bound to affect that person's behavior some time, right? Unless the person uses the art of self-control, where, when they feel jealous of someone, they quietly let it flow and fill them up, and meanwhile try to understand why they're feeling jealous. There's no point in trying to convince oneself that the emotions one is feeling is false, or a joke or some rubbish like that. It's completely fine to feel negative emotions. The more you shy away from them, the more they haunt you and make you feel far more sickly than when you go (actually you don't really have to go anywhere, though somewhere quiet and windy always helps in my case:p) and confront them. You should totally be fine with you feeling jealous, but then learn to not show it to others. This, I know, sounds a lot like I'm saying that saying that you should keep your feelings bottled up. This is why, I'll add that another way, probably faster and easier way, is to tell someone really close, whom you trust and love or whatever. I like that method too, but the problem is, I'm an only child, and sometimes saying certain things to your parents gets really... erm... awkward. So if my best-friend-for-the-rest-of-eternity is not free for me to spill, then I have only my crazed SELF to resort to. So I shall master self-control. I will keep the crappy feelings in, and analyze them, and do something sensible to solve my problem, not, like hack off the person I'm pissed off with's head.
That was a joke!!!!! I've never been tempted to hack off anyone's head. Though I remember that I was sorely tempted to poison Justin Bieber's drink with cyanide or something... Kidding!!!! (Again) Murderous wishes in any kid's mind means that the creep needs therapy, and fast.
Right, so self-control, self-preservation (in a way).... And, (yes I was reading Princess Diaries recently) SELF-ACTUALIZATION. I really don't understand what they mean by the term? Does it mean to understand your own feelings, as in the way you think? Or is it what you want in life and you realize how to get it in the right way? Or is it that someone tells you something true about you, and it may be good or bad, but it hits you all hard and axe-like, and you know that it's true?? OR is it simply that you learn how to be a good person and not hurt other people while trying to acquire a lovely life or something? AAAHHHH!!!!
This is sooo confusing.
"Self-actualization refers to fulfilling ones individual potential." I just got this from the net. Hmm... Does that really make you a better perfect because however brilliant you may be in a certain field/s, it doesn't directly make you a BETTER person, right? I mean, just look at Pablo Picasso!!!! He was a fantastic artist, but totally sucked at being a human being. I mean, he drove a bunch of his girlfriends to insanity!!! So you see what I mean? He DID fulfill his individual potential by making sure the entire planet knew he was a master at art... But he wasn't a good person. No way Jose.
So I think, self-actualization is getting what you dearly want in life, in a good, clever, selfless way....
Yeesh. That's a bit too much. But I guess helping others comes in self-actualization, as it makes you caring and compassionate etc etc. But every individual should be allowed to let a little sliver of selfishness in once in a while.... You know, without hurting anyone, but without thinking about the greater good or whatever every second you breath. Is that too much to ask for??
I have absolutely no clue...
Oh I know it's really not related to the serious, life-choice context, but I absolutely LOVE The Wanted!!!!!
Their music is simply E-P-I-C!! Love them sooo much...
Anyway, now I've got to go....
Alvida till the next time,
Squish
